o.O

i was making a wrong decision..
last time i should let him go like this.. bt y im so stupid..?
now felt regret is toO late ad..
maybe i was change his life.. i hope u at there stay happily always..
nw i just felt that 2gether wif u, really is a great moment ^^
but the time cant turn back again..
n i jz can c u go like tis..
i just hope u can take care always n make some result back..

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人越大烦恼就越多。。 不是吗。。？

holiday mode ^^

this sem holiday really hv a lot of fun.. thz u guys who acc me pass..^^
although  many guys were leave me soon.. bt i appreciate them..
bcz thy ad acc me pass the a lot of happy+ sad day~thz <3
one of my fen wan go another country working ad.. aiz..
so sad when heard the news.. hope he can get wat he wan la..
support u always.. ^^
one of my best fen.. he wan go KL working n study ad... ==''
he also always acc me when im sad..
still gt a fen.. kc.. u mz take care always..
im waiting u bec celebrate my 23th bday wif me..
u was promise me a lot a lot...
i jz can tell u, although the time v as couple is short..
bt v will bcum best fen 4ver.. i promise u...

BUKIT JAMBUL complex..

2day im going to BJ complex..
having my breakfast, lunch, n dinner at MISAI..
delicious, yum yum ^^
there really gv me a lot a lot memories..
bt the memories 4ever jz oni is the memories..
still remember v do a lot of things at there.. tht time v really vry poor..
evrything oso dun hv.. still remember or tht..
tht time really is the time v most happy although wat v oso dun hv..
bt nw ad different,..
aiz.. nvm ad la.. nw i ad gt my new life.. the pass dun think bec ad la..
i oso noe tht evrything cant turn bec ad..
v mz c in front.. nt see behind..
gambateh.. ^^

"guy will forget gal at once they r rich.. y they never think back the time when he is poor,he din hv anything,who still stay at beside them..? 1 like tht, 2 also like tht..."
aiz~~

my day in tis 10 days

During  tis 10^th days of my exam week.. no function at all.. everyday oni study… so sien…

But nw is ad afer 10 days~ haha~

Nw can enjoy 99 at home ad~ after suffering is enjoying ^^

Bt tis time final, I really hv a lot of pressure.. I think nt oni me..

But I noe a lot of ppl was helping me alot during tis final.. thz a lot..

O ya.. the 1 thing tht I cant 4get is

The FooD r sold at uum duing tis Final.. bad.. bad and bad…

I eat until wanna vomit u noe.. everyday eat the same thing.. n early early gt ppl go buy food ad..
the early u noe mean wat time bo... --__+

The student all scare they although hv $$ bt cant gt the food to eat,.. so pity…

One of them is me.. lolz.. I still remember 1 day,I jz late a bit go down.. everything was finish..

Imagine la.. economy rice 4 lunch,11am all food ad finish.. kong por bo… aiz~

No choice la… who call I enter 1^st choice of uni.. really is my pleasure ^^

Nw I ad at pg, ad can eat wat I wan… the 1^st I wan eat I ad eat last nite.. hokian cha…

Waaa.. vry nice n yummy 99.. ^^

XiN Fu 99 ~

T.T

2day very unhappy~

day~s

v same like a small couple.. but not couple..

me in love but not in a relationship...

should i accept this relationship...?

im know he is waiting me so long~

almost

everyday he will report what he do in a day to me..

its's seen like a relationship wan start~

considering la

Flood~

i sick how many days then u rain hw many days..
2day again is a raining day..
god.. plz.. stop it.. plz dun make joke with us anymore..
many ppl affect by flood ad.. plz save them..  thz a lot...

The End~

finally,nearly 6years relation,have a dot at here..
its is good or bad 4 me..?
i no brave to think ad..
actually in this few years v break up..
my heart still at there..
many guys will ask.. r u put down everything? r u ok..?
r u still feel sad..?
i ll ans them : sure.. y not..?
but act im not.. i really cant make it..
im lying myself.. he still at my heart..
he still acc me.. he still at my beside me..he still love me..
but actually that is not the real that i think..
i love him.. not the simply u can understand it..
break is the way i choose.. i mz understand what will i gt after this..
but this is not the ways i wan..
i really don1 leave from u.. but..time is up..
i no more chance to care u.. no more chance share the happiness and sadness with you..
u also no need me ad,i noe it..
the day he msg me.. he was say a lot a lot thing,its he never told me b4..
it was hurt me very very deep..
situation..
the day i went out with friends..
i was call him.. i told him.. i wan u acc me 2nite.. just a moment,,
seriously,i nt greedy,just a moment..
he told me.. can 2ml..? im nt free now..
i ask he what he busy? he say his friends break up..
feel sad.. wan to acc him.. 
............................................................................
then v also not break up meh..?
i no need ppl acc also meh..?
..............................................................................
at last he was msg me like this..
"y u wan put down this relation but still wan call me find u.?
i don1 c u hurt u again.. i prefer u don1 c me anymore.."
after received his msg(s).. i dono what should i do..
..............................................................................
he told me like this.. what the mean..
he don1 hurt me ad or really don1 me ad?
he really don1 me ad.. how? dono..
dono what should i do ad.. i don1 force him ad..
he sad i gam buan i sad.. he wan freedom,i gv him..
he wan do what he like.. i gv him..
i jz to say,the way i choose today,is because of u..
i noe i say that i was hurt u a lot a lot.. bt sorry
i no brave to tell u y..?
at there.. he never come.. never concern my things..T.T
so i share at there la..
if i told u guys,if i say i choose this ways is 4 his own gd.. u believe or not..
maybe many ppl will doubt about that..
bt i tell u,u r wrong..
u totally wrong...
act i really because of him..
i really wan him feel happy.. i don1 he feel sad again..
i wan let him do what he like,love who she like,
go where he like,think what he wan..
i noe.. if i choose the 1st way,i will feel happy,bt he will feel sad..
if i choose the 2nd way,he will feel happy,but i will feel sad..
so..
i choose the 2nd way..
i noe if i like him.. i must like this..
he oni can happy..
if lets say that day,i choose the 1st way,4 him,he was no freedom..
he cant do the thing he like.. he will face a lot of problem..
fine.. because of him.. ur 2day decision is rite,worth..
i promise u,i wont sad,i wont cry,i will done my study..
i will do the best to myself..
i told myself.. nvm..
u not at beside me nvm.. i sad nvm..
as long as u happy enough..
im strong what.. what i oso can setter what...
dun worry me.. forget me..
jz think that i nvr appear in ur world..
nvr meet u....
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the end is i choose.. i must face it..
that day,u tell him like this.. he was hurt a lot... 2day..
dun let him hurt ad.. u hurt la now...
i promise u,i will start my new life..^^
i can..
bt thz god let me meet u b4.. i nvr regret..
if the time is turn to 2005,i will choose u..
still wont change~
the change is i will menhargai u..
the i noe cant ad.. too late 3 me.. nw i regret also cant ad...
i wan at ur beside also cant.. i jz noe i vry pain vry pain...
heart broken ad... i jz regret y last time i din hole ur hand properly..?
now u no at my beside.. i jz noe u r very important to me...T.T
who can understand me..? no ppl...
who can understand i love to him.? .no ppl...
who can replace him..? no ppl..
give me some time..i will stand up..
give me a month time to sad... gv me a month time to cry...
give me a month to recover.. give me a month to satnd up..
give me a month time to let u come out from my heart...
give me a month time to think back the good memory...
i scare i will 4get after this.. i wan concentrate on this this in this month...
hui chen,after a month... u cant do all this thing ad... u mz stand up...
the guy ad leave u... u sad also no use.. he will not back ad..
y u so stupid 1...? i dono...
i juz noe.. i love him much much than u cant imagine..
fine.. hui chen,give u a month time to rest la..
juz do what u wan, jz think what u wan... bt jz a month enough..
the thing i wan to do nw... is cry....
i wan cry until no sound... because..
cry oni can make my heart feel nicely...
i noe i was promise him,i wont cry.. but i jz need a month time to cry..
after this wont ad.. i will happy..
now.. the song is very suit me is :xin tong,心痛"..
i promise u guys.. after 1 month, really hui chen will back...
i will not use fake face to face u guys... i believe i can do it...
i hope u guys will believe me and support much much to me..
i need u guys..

fine,.. the story until here la... thz for reading..^^
wait me wait me,u guys muz wait me...~ nw im dreaming mode..
after a month,is a active mode ad~ BELIEVE me~ 

happy day~

yesterday and today, i was go shopping~ huh~ so syok~

i was buy what i need and want ~

i was buy my bao bao,friends's present,accessories,cloths,etc~

eat some more~

huh~

sure spend a lot wat~ 

damn poor now~

2ml still need to spend a lot leh..

i haven done all my things..

this time i back,i think nt purposely for study,...

is for enjoying,,

damn bad~ -__+

how are,my final result...?

anyway still need to study la...-___+

good luck ya ^^

a day after back from heaven^^

quite long period din back to Loving House ad~ mIz mIz~

but fall sick ad~ huh~ very suffer la--_+

i think tis time i bec, cant study ad~ 

gt a lot date... aiz~ 

cousin date,boss date,secondary fen date,working fen date,old fen date~

huh~ although so many entertainment can bring me a lot of happiness,

bt i scare i cant affort that~ haiz~ 

SICK life is so suffer~ T.T

day~

nervous day~

2day is our kaf presentation.. although i was prepared everything, bt still nervous~

huh~ bt unluckily,i noneed to present.. juz help my members oni~

gt ang kong and many many fen popi~ sure "bo tai chi" ^^ thz ya~ muackz~

sien~

feel very tired~

The Day~

Again is my Uni holiday..

as usual, i was doing my homework,watching my Movie,On9~

Haiz~ really is a boring Uni's life~ how come..?

seriously,home sick ad~ hiakhiak..

bt still hv few days can go bec ad..

yahooOOoo~ Penang, im coming...

waiting me ya^^<3

waiting gathering wif my ji mui them ^^

shopping~ facial~sliming~ sharing my Uni daily life wif my Mummy~

great~ ^^

huh.. i seen like 4get jor tht is nt my holiday, bt is my study week hor...

dun bother, enjoy 1st~ hiakhiak~ miss u all soOOoo much ya^^

Hk Disney land~ im coming sOon~

babe,let's go to HONG KONG disney land^^
kenot wait ad~ -__+

hOmE SicK~

miss u miss u~ <3
hope fas fas can back home~
almost 1 month din back ad~ HOME SICK ~
huhu~

wat to do in a lonely night~

again is a busy day~
huh~bt can say is brain busy ba~ aiz~
damn sien nia 2day.. 
y im so down 2day...? missing some1.. huh~ impossible la... -__=
i understand what i need n what i wan ad.. sure is nt "HIM" again...
bt y i still thinking bout him... swt~
dun think d, ok,...~

my days ~

wao~ raining leh~ my favorite weather oO~ yahooO~
bt 2day raining finally i no miss him le~ izit i d successful?
hopefully la then~ recently, i know he with a gal vry close..
at the beginning,i very mind that..
but after that im ok already d.. huh~
sometime something that are not yours, how you force also cannot get it.. right?
nvm la~ it's ok then^^
even though how many you explain,i will not believe anymore.. understand..?
you already made me disappointed again and again..haiz~
Many thing wan to think~ consider thins and that.. very tired.. seriously~
im very tired.. i need a shoulder.. but the shoulder i already reject.. -___+
what to do..?
haiz~ nvm la.. slow slow la~ some more he will appear in year 2012~ kaka~
my Mr. Right will come at that time.. izit truth..?
im not sure also~ ^^ but hopefully is true la~ kaka^^ blek =P

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last night, cant sleep well.. dream something are horrible~ huh~ cant imagine ~
i scare got something will happen.. god.. popi us ya~ 
some more i dream my dad.. but he never knows he was pass away.. how come like this..?
maybe he gt something wan to tell me.. but i din aware~ so sorry~


 

emo ~ emo~

miss some1 la~
uh la la~

uh la la~