The End~

finally,nearly 6years relation,have a dot at here..
its is good or bad 4 me..?
i no brave to think ad..
actually in this few years v break up..
my heart still at there..
many guys will ask.. r u put down everything? r u ok..?
r u still feel sad..?
i ll ans them : sure.. y not..?
but act im not.. i really cant make it..
im lying myself.. he still at my heart..
he still acc me.. he still at my beside me..he still love me..
but actually that is not the real that i think..
i love him.. not the simply u can understand it..
break is the way i choose.. i mz understand what will i gt after this..
but this is not the ways i wan..
i really don1 leave from u.. but..time is up..
i no more chance to care u.. no more chance share the happiness and sadness with you..
u also no need me ad,i noe it..
the day he msg me.. he was say a lot a lot thing,its he never told me b4..
it was hurt me very very deep..
situation..
the day i went out with friends..
i was call him.. i told him.. i wan u acc me 2nite.. just a moment,,
seriously,i nt greedy,just a moment..
he told me.. can 2ml..? im nt free now..
i ask he what he busy? he say his friends break up..
feel sad.. wan to acc him.. 
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then v also not break up meh..?
i no need ppl acc also meh..?
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at last he was msg me like this..
"y u wan put down this relation but still wan call me find u.?
i don1 c u hurt u again.. i prefer u don1 c me anymore.."
after received his msg(s).. i dono what should i do..
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he told me like this.. what the mean..
he don1 hurt me ad or really don1 me ad?
he really don1 me ad.. how? dono..
dono what should i do ad.. i don1 force him ad..
he sad i gam buan i sad.. he wan freedom,i gv him..
he wan do what he like.. i gv him..
i jz to say,the way i choose today,is because of u..
i noe i say that i was hurt u a lot a lot.. bt sorry
i no brave to tell u y..?
at there.. he never come.. never concern my things..T.T
so i share at there la..
if i told u guys,if i say i choose this ways is 4 his own gd.. u believe or not..
maybe many ppl will doubt about that..
bt i tell u,u r wrong..
u totally wrong...
act i really because of him..
i really wan him feel happy.. i don1 he feel sad again..
i wan let him do what he like,love who she like,
go where he like,think what he wan..
i noe.. if i choose the 1st way,i will feel happy,bt he will feel sad..
if i choose the 2nd way,he will feel happy,but i will feel sad..
so..
i choose the 2nd way..
i noe if i like him.. i must like this..
he oni can happy..
if lets say that day,i choose the 1st way,4 him,he was no freedom..
he cant do the thing he like.. he will face a lot of problem..
fine.. because of him.. ur 2day decision is rite,worth..
i promise u,i wont sad,i wont cry,i will done my study..
i will do the best to myself..
i told myself.. nvm..
u not at beside me nvm.. i sad nvm..
as long as u happy enough..
im strong what.. what i oso can setter what...
dun worry me.. forget me..
jz think that i nvr appear in ur world..
nvr meet u....
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the end is i choose.. i must face it..
that day,u tell him like this.. he was hurt a lot... 2day..
dun let him hurt ad.. u hurt la now...
i promise u,i will start my new life..^^
i can..
bt thz god let me meet u b4.. i nvr regret..
if the time is turn to 2005,i will choose u..
still wont change~
the change is i will menhargai u..
the i noe cant ad.. too late 3 me.. nw i regret also cant ad...
i wan at ur beside also cant.. i jz noe i vry pain vry pain...
heart broken ad... i jz regret y last time i din hole ur hand properly..?
now u no at my beside.. i jz noe u r very important to me...T.T
who can understand me..? no ppl...
who can understand i love to him.? .no ppl...
who can replace him..? no ppl..
give me some time..i will stand up..
give me a month time to sad... gv me a month time to cry...
give me a month to recover.. give me a month to satnd up..
give me a month time to let u come out from my heart...
give me a month time to think back the good memory...
i scare i will 4get after this.. i wan concentrate on this this in this month...
hui chen,after a month... u cant do all this thing ad... u mz stand up...
the guy ad leave u... u sad also no use.. he will not back ad..
y u so stupid 1...? i dono...
i juz noe.. i love him much much than u cant imagine..
fine.. hui chen,give u a month time to rest la..
juz do what u wan, jz think what u wan... bt jz a month enough..
the thing i wan to do nw... is cry....
i wan cry until no sound... because..
cry oni can make my heart feel nicely...
i noe i was promise him,i wont cry.. but i jz need a month time to cry..
after this wont ad.. i will happy..
now.. the song is very suit me is :xin tong,心痛"..
i promise u guys.. after 1 month, really hui chen will back...
i will not use fake face to face u guys... i believe i can do it...
i hope u guys will believe me and support much much to me..
i need u guys..

fine,.. the story until here la... thz for reading..^^
wait me wait me,u guys muz wait me...~ nw im dreaming mode..
after a month,is a active mode ad~ BELIEVE me~ 

happy day~

yesterday and today, i was go shopping~ huh~ so syok~

i was buy what i need and want ~

i was buy my bao bao,friends's present,accessories,cloths,etc~

eat some more~

huh~

sure spend a lot wat~ 

damn poor now~

2ml still need to spend a lot leh..

i haven done all my things..

this time i back,i think nt purposely for study,...

is for enjoying,,

damn bad~ -__+

how are,my final result...?

anyway still need to study la...-___+

good luck ya ^^

a day after back from heaven^^

quite long period din back to Loving House ad~ mIz mIz~

but fall sick ad~ huh~ very suffer la--_+

i think tis time i bec, cant study ad~ 

gt a lot date... aiz~ 

cousin date,boss date,secondary fen date,working fen date,old fen date~

huh~ although so many entertainment can bring me a lot of happiness,

bt i scare i cant affort that~ haiz~ 

SICK life is so suffer~ T.T

day~

nervous day~

2day is our kaf presentation.. although i was prepared everything, bt still nervous~

huh~ bt unluckily,i noneed to present.. juz help my members oni~

gt ang kong and many many fen popi~ sure "bo tai chi" ^^ thz ya~ muackz~

sien~

feel very tired~

The Day~

Again is my Uni holiday..

as usual, i was doing my homework,watching my Movie,On9~

Haiz~ really is a boring Uni's life~ how come..?

seriously,home sick ad~ hiakhiak..

bt still hv few days can go bec ad..

yahooOOoo~ Penang, im coming...

waiting me ya^^<3

waiting gathering wif my ji mui them ^^

shopping~ facial~sliming~ sharing my Uni daily life wif my Mummy~

great~ ^^

huh.. i seen like 4get jor tht is nt my holiday, bt is my study week hor...

dun bother, enjoy 1st~ hiakhiak~ miss u all soOOoo much ya^^

Hk Disney land~ im coming sOon~

babe,let's go to HONG KONG disney land^^
kenot wait ad~ -__+

hOmE SicK~

miss u miss u~ <3
hope fas fas can back home~
almost 1 month din back ad~ HOME SICK ~
huhu~

wat to do in a lonely night~

again is a busy day~
huh~bt can say is brain busy ba~ aiz~
damn sien nia 2day.. 
y im so down 2day...? missing some1.. huh~ impossible la... -__=
i understand what i need n what i wan ad.. sure is nt "HIM" again...
bt y i still thinking bout him... swt~
dun think d, ok,...~

my days ~

wao~ raining leh~ my favorite weather oO~ yahooO~
bt 2day raining finally i no miss him le~ izit i d successful?
hopefully la then~ recently, i know he with a gal vry close..
at the beginning,i very mind that..
but after that im ok already d.. huh~
sometime something that are not yours, how you force also cannot get it.. right?
nvm la~ it's ok then^^
even though how many you explain,i will not believe anymore.. understand..?
you already made me disappointed again and again..haiz~
Many thing wan to think~ consider thins and that.. very tired.. seriously~
im very tired.. i need a shoulder.. but the shoulder i already reject.. -___+
what to do..?
haiz~ nvm la.. slow slow la~ some more he will appear in year 2012~ kaka~
my Mr. Right will come at that time.. izit truth..?
im not sure also~ ^^ but hopefully is true la~ kaka^^ blek =P

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last night, cant sleep well.. dream something are horrible~ huh~ cant imagine ~
i scare got something will happen.. god.. popi us ya~ 
some more i dream my dad.. but he never knows he was pass away.. how come like this..?
maybe he gt something wan to tell me.. but i din aware~ so sorry~


 

emo ~ emo~

miss some1 la~
uh la la~

uh la la~

^..^

2day no class~
ntg to do~ damn boring~
2 weeks relation break again.. what to do..?
maybe is my problem..i haven gt ready to start a new relation~
so sorry to him~ but this time break,i feel that gt a bit unhappy~
aiz.. nvm laa.. 1ppl oso mz pass a day,2ppl oso mz pass a day~
nw enjoy my single's life 1st la~
uh la la~ hapi la~
no worry no worry~ without guy, still can survive~
hiak hiak~ ^^

tO yOu~

Sometimes I'm an angel, sometimes I'm cruel,
But when it comes to love I'm just another fool.

I thought you'd be the first guy
To prove to me that not all guys are the same
But really what you have proven to me
Is that they really are all the same

Crushes u get over,
and the tears go away,
but loving u is different,
the tear will always stay

Wanting him is hard to get.
Loving him is hard to regret.
Losing him is hard to accept.
But with all the hurt I've felt,
Letting go is the most painful yet...

Its amazing how someone
can break your heart
But yet you still love them
with every broken piece

It really hurts when you expected
so much more from the person
you once loved so much.

I wish I was a kid again,
because skinned knees are
easier to fix then broken hearts.
Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person
we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that
we've stopped loving them
or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is
a painful way to say I love you.

~~

是不是要求不高就会得到幸福。。？
看到一对俊男配丑女，一对丑男配美女。。
其实更幸福~因为他们比此更会疼爱对方~不是吗。。？
很多女生，都很喜欢帅哥；很多男生都想要找个美女当老婆~
其实不是不能，只是你未必能。。
人常说：不要高攀~这就是其中的道理~
假设给你找到帅的又怎样，美的又怎样。。
他要不时真心的对你，要他来干嘛。。？
所以吖，适度就好~
希望越高，失望就越大唷~
过来人，的确比较清楚的~

mY mOrninG~

seriously i like this morning so MuCh~ ^^
muacksss~
the sun is nt soOo hot,the wind is nt soOo cold~
damn enjoy the feel 2day~ NiCe~
if the moment i can 2gether wif my dear, u say hw gd is tht..~
bt~ no more the chance

悲吖~

怎么老是说要减肥。。 但是还是肥佬。。？
几时我才能变成正眉呢。。？
胖胖的，丑死了~ 悲吖~

tired day~

everyday busy~ busy~busy~
bcz of  "stupid" ASSIGNMENT~ isshhhh~
sob sob~
2day damn tired~ whole night doing Hub etnik assign~
actually busy is a gd thing 4 me, bcz xneed have pattern too much ma~
rite.? hiakhiak~
jia you 4 2ml la.. GaMbaTeh~
good night everyone ^^ <3

add drop day~

again is the bad day for me..
early in the morning must go to add drop for our next sem timetable.
4896~
last night just sleep for few hours..
now feel very headache although i'm just wake up from my nap~
so syok~
in our uni lif,every students most hate i think during this moment,.. seriously..
IM HATE IT...
but luckily.. this sem i meet some "good" senior n my friends who were helping me for this sem add drop..
well.. thz 4 helping~ appreciate it~ ^^

thanks my seniors and friends who helping me in this time add drop.. Max Tan Aik Ming. 王泽坤, Alvin Wong, Pitt Yu, Jethro Khor, Thomas Kang, and others friends..

 

 

 

miss the pass so much~

人。。总 是得往前方而去。。
假如一个人说只想留在当下，不想前进。。
那就表示那个人真的累了，想休息了。。

醒醒吧~

一对情侣有哪么的冷淡的吗。？ 一星期通一次电话~几封信息~
是这样的吗。。？ 不懂也。。。
其实现在有没有男朋友对我来讲。。 无所谓噢~我不懂爱情是个什么东东。。
付出了真心了又怎样。。 还不是一样的下场~
~T.T~

希望你明白我，不要迫我，好吗。。？

OuR Delicious DinNeR

                                                    yummy~ yummy~ thz my roomate~ ^^ <3

SAD day~

until now.. y he still wan 2 lie me..?
izit he oni wan 2 lie me 4 everything... y oni me..?
i need help.. seriously i need..
i cry 4 long but dono wat for..?
i try to stop myself.. bt cant..
luckily gt him~ he was save me frm hell..
tq.. ^^