its is good or bad 4 me..?
i no brave to think ad..
actually in this few years v break up..
my heart still at there..
many guys will ask.. r u put down everything? r u ok..?
r u still feel sad..?
i ll ans them : sure.. y not..?
but act im not.. i really cant make it..
im lying myself.. he still at my heart..
he still acc me.. he still at my beside me..he still love me..
but actually that is not the real that i think..
i love him.. not the simply u can understand it..
break is the way i choose.. i mz understand what will i gt after this..
but this is not the ways i wan..
i really don1 leave from u.. but..time is up..
i no more chance to care u.. no more chance share the happiness and sadness with you..
u also no need me ad,i noe it..
the day he msg me.. he was say a lot a lot thing,its he never told me b4..
it was hurt me very very deep..
situation..
the day i went out with friends..
i was call him.. i told him.. i wan u acc me 2nite.. just a moment,,
seriously,i nt greedy,just a moment..
he told me.. can 2ml..? im nt free now..
i ask he what he busy? he say his friends break up..
feel sad.. wan to acc him..
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then v also not break up meh..?
i no need ppl acc also meh..?
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at last he was msg me like this..
"y u wan put down this relation but still wan call me find u.?
i don1 c u hurt u again.. i prefer u don1 c me anymore.."
after received his msg(s).. i dono what should i do..
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he told me like this.. what the mean..
he don1 hurt me ad or really don1 me ad?
he really don1 me ad.. how? dono..
dono what should i do ad.. i don1 force him ad..
he sad i gam buan i sad.. he wan freedom,i gv him..
he wan do what he like.. i gv him..
i jz to say,the way i choose today,is because of u..
i noe i say that i was hurt u a lot a lot.. bt sorry
i no brave to tell u y..?
at there.. he never come.. never concern my things..T.T
so i share at there la..
if i told u guys,if i say i choose this ways is 4 his own gd.. u believe or not..
maybe many ppl will doubt about that..
bt i tell u,u r wrong..
u totally wrong...
act i really because of him..
i really wan him feel happy.. i don1 he feel sad again..
i wan let him do what he like,love who she like,
go where he like,think what he wan..
i noe.. if i choose the 1st way,i will feel happy,bt he will feel sad..
if i choose the 2nd way,he will feel happy,but i will feel sad..
so..
i choose the 2nd way..
i noe if i like him.. i must like this..
he oni can happy..
if lets say that day,i choose the 1st way,4 him,he was no freedom..
he cant do the thing he like.. he will face a lot of problem..
fine.. because of him.. ur 2day decision is rite,worth..
i promise u,i wont sad,i wont cry,i will done my study..
i will do the best to myself..
i told myself.. nvm..
u not at beside me nvm.. i sad nvm..
as long as u happy enough..
im strong what.. what i oso can setter what...
dun worry me.. forget me..
jz think that i nvr appear in ur world..
nvr meet u....
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the end is i choose.. i must face it..
that day,u tell him like this.. he was hurt a lot... 2day..
dun let him hurt ad.. u hurt la now...
i promise u,i will start my new life..^^
i can..
bt thz god let me meet u b4.. i nvr regret..
if the time is turn to 2005,i will choose u..
still wont change~
the change is i will menhargai u..
the i noe cant ad.. too late 3 me.. nw i regret also cant ad...
i wan at ur beside also cant.. i jz noe i vry pain vry pain...
heart broken ad... i jz regret y last time i din hole ur hand properly..?
now u no at my beside.. i jz noe u r very important to me...T.T
who can understand me..? no ppl...
who can understand i love to him.? .no ppl...
who can replace him..? no ppl..
give me some time..i will stand up..
give me a month time to sad... gv me a month time to cry...
give me a month to recover.. give me a month to satnd up..
give me a month time to let u come out from my heart...
give me a month time to think back the good memory...
i scare i will 4get after this.. i wan concentrate on this this in this month...
hui chen,after a month... u cant do all this thing ad... u mz stand up...
the guy ad leave u... u sad also no use.. he will not back ad..
y u so stupid 1...? i dono...
i juz noe.. i love him much much than u cant imagine..
fine.. hui chen,give u a month time to rest la..
juz do what u wan, jz think what u wan... bt jz a month enough..
the thing i wan to do nw... is cry....
i wan cry until no sound... because..
cry oni can make my heart feel nicely...
i noe i was promise him,i wont cry.. but i jz need a month time to cry..
after this wont ad.. i will happy..
now.. the song is very suit me is :xin tong,心痛"..
i promise u guys.. after 1 month, really hui chen will back...
i will not use fake face to face u guys... i believe i can do it...
i hope u guys will believe me and support much much to me..
i need u guys..
fine,.. the story until here la... thz for reading..^^
wait me wait me,u guys muz wait me...~ nw im dreaming mode..
after a month,is a active mode ad~ BELIEVE me~
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